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Name: Jazzlynn Genocide
Birthday: August 30th
Age: Seventeen
Sex: Female
Occupation:Photographer
Interests:Horseback riding, Anime, Opera, etc.
Amour: Michael Billings. <3
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Name: NightmareNovelist
Interests: Singing, Horseback riding, Dancing, Anime, Reading, Writing, Photography, etc.
Expertise: Uh, Horseback Riding?
Occupation: Photography :)
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Member Since:
5/11/2010
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| As tiny of a town I live in any car crash or house fire is extremely huge and uncommon. And I'm not even playing well last Wednesday a student in one of my classes and attend the college I go to, committed suicide. When the news got out it was all anyone here even talked about. I heard it from almost every person in grocery stores and at gas stations it completely rocked the little town of Sparta. Phillip Brown from what I knew about him always lived to help others. A wise person told me that the words selfish and Phillip just didn't go together. What I remember most about him, was he had the most amazing white smile/teeth. I envied him so. And even though I didn't actually know him, I cried at his funeral. Never have I seen so many people at one time in one room just sit together and cry together whether they were close to him or not. It's the fact that he existed that hurt everyone. He was a face that some seen regularly and a face that many loved and cared for. You hear a lot of people talk about a single person about how good they are and most of the time, it's not true. Phillip is one of the only people that I possibly know, that had a good head on his shoulders. That cared for others needs and was not selfish to anyone, and yet I still rack my brain why someone with his whole life set out for him with Straight A's and hardly any enemies would do something like this. It confused me so much. But we all know he is in a better place, and maybe what he was hiding behind his smiles has stopped bothering him so much because the letter he left spoke of nothing about how much he loved everyone and how everyone should take care of themselves and how everyone should stop drinking underage and doing reckless things.
So for Phillip this is to you, a man I never got the chance to know and a possible friend I never got to know but I know you existed. And every October the 20th you'll be in my heart because I know I may see you one day. So rest in peace.
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| So is it at all possible to become a better person for someone else? It sounds like a no duh question. Three hours ago I would have totally been like "hell yeah", but now I've noticed holes in my opinion, and in myself. Is it right to change yourself for another because three hours ago I would have said "I'll never change who I am for another persons happiness", and now I'm fighting an inner demon that wants me to alter myself. Again. I don't know right from wrong hardly anymore. (Oh and sorry I don't wright much on happy stuff, I usually just come here to vent. =/)
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| Why, is it so hard, for a man/woman to be faithful in a relationship?
What drives people to cheat? What gives them the idea that it's okay? The human race is a funny species. One we think we are invincible, that nothing will happen to us. And two, most of our kind don't care if another is hurting, whether it's physically or emotionally. And it's a proven fact that emotional pain, is the worst of any kind of pain and I couldn't agree more. I would rather be stabbed a thousand times than to have to suffer through a best friend dying or my husband or wife cheating on me.
So why my fellow community? Why are we so disgusting...? Why is one person not enough for another? For some reason, I just feel like I need a reasonable answer.
Jazzlynn Genocide
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To me, it's extremely important that my boyfriend and best guy friend get along. One, I want us one day to just go out and live our lives if only for one day together. Jordan Tyler Keen saved me from the darkness and from myself. And Michael Herold Billings saved me from heart ache and feeling alone. I need both of them, and if they can't get along, in the end everything will one day clash and I'll be the one hurt in the end. The only reason my boyfriend won't converse with him, is because he's my ex. It upsets me because he should trust me more, and try to understand that I need my best friend in my life. I need the kid that knows every detail in me and knows that every breath I take could be converted back to wanting to end my life. Wanting to stop breathing because the world is so cold, and NO one else is capable of this because Jordan knows what it's like. Mikey stopped my walls from being indestructible. He made his way to my heart slowly, just like any man should. He accepts me. Every single flaw, and when I feel ugly and obsolete, he makes me feel beautiful and wanted. I can't live without the other. I can't. And the day that one goes away, most will know I won't exist anymore...and I won't hesitate because I've never needed these two more than I do now...
I wish this was easier, and I just wish that I could fix it all like I'm so use to doing. But, I can't. All I can do is sit and watch life be unfair and coil around my hands in restraint....
I pray I find faith in something, in someone of higher power to answer my prayers because my heart is becoming unstable...
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